You know that saying, “Some days you are the pigeon, some
days you are the statue”. I hate that saying. It’s basically saying that
some days you crap on people, other days they crap on you. That's a dog eat dog world I'm not interested in.
I have my own version. I’m more, “Some days I’m Sarah
Connor, whilst others, I’m Holly Golightly”. Yes, I did just use The
Terminator and Breakfast at Tiffanys as references. I identify with them both.
The Sarah Connor days I am strong, I can deal with whatever
is thrown at me. I have vulnerability, but I’m comfortable in my own
skin. If you screw with me I’ll fight right back.
The Holly Golightly days, I’m bravado. I’m scared,
unsure, I run a mile at the thought of exposing my heart, but I put up a damn
good front. It’s the mean reds. I let myself be Holly when I
need to be, she did in the end, overcome her fears and go for it after
all.
Today, I’m Holly. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be
Sarah. One day, hopefully I’ll just be me.
