Sometimes, a few times a year actually, I get what I tend to call my black cloud.
Contrary to what you see on Twitter with my regular ranting, stroppy self, off Twitter I’m quite a sunny person. Different aspects of your personality and all that.
Depression hits me a few times a year. I’m not going to deny it. It’s the price you pay for compartmentalisation. If you shove everything that hurts/you don’t like in a drawer, now and again it’s going to escape and bite you in the ass.
Right now, I’m in a crappy place. I’ve been there before and it’s not a nice vacation. But it’s normally a short stay as opposed to the long haul. If it ever becomes long haul then feel free to send in the men with the white coats.
I’m not saying any of this in an attempt to garner sympathy or whatever. But saying “I’m disappearing for a few days because I have issues” normally needs a least a short explanation. Before people think that you are mental. Which I probably am. But you knew that already 
Typical fucking me for entering black cloud stage right before the Monaco Grand Prix. Although if the quali/race doesn’t pull me back, nothing will lol
See you in a few. xx
